A Reunion with Ayahuasca and a Restoration of Faith

A Reunion with Ayahuasca and a Restoration of Faith

“The medicine showed me myself sitting up, like a strong woman, and how I can do this for regular-life situations too, and I’d be rewarded just like I’m being rewarded now with a beautiful ayahuasca experience gained from my hard work. I have control. I am not feeble. It was challenging, but absolutely fucking beautiful! So swirly, and fractal, so gentle, yet powerful, so light, so perfect, so ethereal, so sacred…”

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Death of Time, Space and Ego in a Jungle Maloca with Ayahuasca

Death of Time, Space and Ego in a Jungle Maloca with Ayahuasca

Rachel, 35, Switzerland: “I braced myself to ride it out, but the next thing I was aware of was one of the facilitators by my feet; I was sitting up. I found it difficult to communicate the support that I needed and to control my physical actions, as I grabbed her tightly by the hand and said in a breathy squeak, “Help me!”. She asked me what was happening, and I blurted out, “I’m dying!”…

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There are Less Punishing Ways to Meet God

There are Less Punishing Ways to Meet God

“In hindsight I regret doing what I did, meeting mother Aya in the condition I was in - and let me tell you she wasn’t too happy about it either. I remember at one point I was so terrified. It was just me and mother, and potential death... no barrier, no protection. No more barriers, no more soothing - this was it.”

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From Scorn to Serenity: A Lesson in Love

From Scorn to Serenity: A Lesson in Love

Rachel, 35, Switzerland: “At my first ceremony, I’d drank two cups but it had absolutely no effects. I’d been baffled at first, but it had soon turned into scorn, and I’d considered leaving the retreat early. I’d been told that my expectations had been too rigid, so I stayed for a second ceremony. I glanced at one of the facilitators and saw that his head separated into little pixels. Ok, I thought. I think something is happening now!”…

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